I love you. In love with you. That will never change. How do you get over that.? Its impossible. I will ALWAYS love you. I made horrible mistakes, horrible decisions. Been through so much with this one person, but after everything & I mean EVERYTHING. I still want us, maybe this isn’t our time, will there ever be a time, I don’t know, I just don’t. I don’t know what to do. Do I move on.? Cause its not seeming like I can. When you only want one person but it seems like things are broken as they can be how do you move on from there.? Do we just go our separate ways or is there hope for us. I want there to be, I want the man I’m in love with. The man I see my future with. Forget the world, just me and him. He’s told me how he feels and his stand on it. & idk. It may sound crazy but I wont give up on love, this love. & maybe thats silly, but I honestly feel like this is my soulmate, my other half. I feel so silly for holding on when maybe I should let go.
As I sit back and think & reminisce, I honestly feel like the man I love has changed. I wouldn’t say that its for the better either, but I guess life can do that to you. I want to know him though, through everything, the ups, the downs, the circles & chaos. I still want to know him. I see. Im aware. Im there.
“I want to tell you I miss
you with no subtext. No guilt,
no anger, no expectation
that you’ll fix it. I don’t want
you to feel bad or to tell
me it will get better. This
is where we are meant to be
right now – me apart from you,
my hands a little empty and
my heart a little sad.
I just miss you.
I wanted you to know.”—anne, fyi (via anneisrestless)
I’ve came to the conclusion that maybe, just maybe I am to forgiving. Sure I’m broken, & have to work on picking up those pieces. But as far as him being forgiven, its done. Holding on to things just isn’t me, I see that. Im not sure on whether this is a good thing, or if I’m just setting myself up. *shrugs*